Monday, April 5, 2010
tonight as I put you to bed, you begged and begged for me to sleep with you. I laid down with you, and began to sing worship songs quietly. Kent, you quickly fell asleep, and Parker, I could hear you squirming up on the top bunk, but I knew sleep was not far off for you.
I started to really enjoy the worship time, and then I felt led to pray for both of you. I climbed up on the top bunk with you Parker, and just began to ask Jesus to bless and touch your life. Then, I made my way down to a sleeping Kent and did the same for him. Somewhere in there, my heart was really moved. I began to plead for your salvation and for the singularity of your heart's desires. I felt the Spirit so strongly, that I began to pray in the language that God has given me. After I said "Amen", I kissed you and began to walk out.
Parker, you piped up and asked, "Mommy. What are those last words you said?"
I tried explaining you to what the Baptism of The Holy Spirit is with the initial physical evidence of speaking in other tongues. Yeah..that didn't work out so well. So, I broke it down like this...Before Jesus left for Heaven, He told his friends that He would send someone to be with them..and that person was the The Holy Spirit. When the Holy Spirit fills your heart God gives you a special language for you to speak with Him in. You looked at me dazed and confused. I tried to break it down even further..I told you the story of Acts 2..but then when I said "tongues of fire appeared on their heads" you seemed a frightened. Great, I thought to myself, I'm freaking my kid out about the Holy Spirit.
I ended up just telling you that sometimes best friends have a secret language that only they can understand...When Jesus is your best friend, He gives you the Holy Spirit, and you and Him can talk to each other in a special way that only He understands.
Hopefully, as you fall in love with Jesus more, your mind will continue to seek and question. Matthew tells us that when we seek we find. So, keep questioning Parker and keep seeking. He, in all of His fullness, can and will be found.